Pat Boone - Star Dust (1958)

...and we're back. It's been 6 years since I've posted to this blog (good lord a "blog" that even sounds old) but here I was sitting at home alone on a Sunday morning and found an old stack of records I haven't played in a long time. And good old Pat Boone shows up in the stack and I decide to play it. from 1958, 11 years before Woodstock, this dude is crooning all over the place. wow amazing. anyway, the point being that time flies and apparently Pat is still alive somewhere out there. and I'm here because of my life. because I need a place to get disgruntled over it all in anonminiyt. I have no idea if any of this is going to make any sense who cares I just need to get my fingers writing again - it's been 2 years since I've written anything and I can't take it anymore. so tired of dreaming that I've craweled back and sitting in front of this computer which is ironic since I purchased this computer over 2 years ago to get my writing life to the next level, hopefully getting published. you know a faster computer that has more space and actually works. it has been the exact opposite. when I got this computer all I did was start watching youtube videos and came across Kyle Pounds living in the van vlogs and went nuts on those. all i did was watch those instead of write. and from there I just kept watching more and more people living in their vans. and no writing and then work and then debt and then kids and then wife and then life and suddenly writing was something I used to do. I'd blame it on writers block and that I needed a break, then I blamed it on the stress of work, then the stress of raising a teenage daughter. oh on and on I went finding as many excuses as I needed. but in the end (which is today) not a goddamn thing got editted or written or anything. I just got fat, lost more hair, hated my job and yelled at my kids.

Corey Fogel - Countercumlative Marcotting

Corey Fogel- Countercumlative Marcotting + Stephanie Hutin & Florencio Zavala-Cheer Up the Loneliest Gallery w/ING passing thru from machine project on Vimeo.

Slow Walking Color Takers - ing

ING from machine project on Vimeo.

Bloc Party & Crystal Castles - hunting.for.witches {remix}

crystal castles Yes.No {live}

alice glass = oh shit...

Joy Division Dead.Souls

there's really nothing I can say that hasn't already. Ian was an absolute genius.

tegan&sara.playlist

ive lost my mind over these 2. they are amazing

Tegan & Sara - This.is.everyting

Cubic.Divinity

Time Cube

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Reverend and The Makers - "He Said He Loved Me"

a little like Herbie Hancock a little Gavin Friday

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russian.nin.survivalism

avante garde russian remake of nin.yearZero.survivalism

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suicideless (no finger on the button)

sometimes, it comes on quick. in an elevator, at a red light. but never in front of Them (things blur here mostly) not as often and all too recognizable no matter how high those goddamn heels may be. so i can recognize the signs, the feral tugging at my mind. the scratching at my wrists; something is going to happen. crooked but it never does.

The one thing that comes with age is strength, so i belittle any attempts made at myself of which are all cerebral and fucking ridiculous. but a drug is a drug; it runs its course the way it will, the shaders come down once in a while. When it's you against you...well just hang the fuck in there.

LaundyIsDryingInTheMotelDownTheStreet

toPushTheBoundariesOfHumanConsciousnessToTheLimits
WhereTruthIsClearerThanDeath
#MakePeopleStandAndLookAt
EachOtherWithAndWithoutReally
Smiling#CanBeDestroyedEasily#People#

writing status

Title: chyr williams
start date: 10/28/06
type: short story
status: 50% editing done
submit by: 01/27/07

google phone interview

had a phone interview with google recruiter for qa engineer position. only 12 month contract no benefits and paying 50 bucks an hour. spoke with matt. walked up big hill behind work and saw a black chair that i wanted to sit in, but didn't because the chair was on a hill and i would have fallen out. a guy came by wearing a hoodie with two small dogs talking on the cell phone about a guy who didn't have a cigarette on him. That's the second conversation I overhead about that.

Babies had rough time going to sleep, lots of crying. have the vacumn turned on. Babies doing better now. everyone is sleeping kind of.

workout

Bench 205lbs
squat 135lbs
over head press 75lbs

manic mood apparently over

well it was fun while it lasted. being bi-polar sure has it's ups and downs. Not thinking much about anything. Posting has become null.

Where is AL and can he save Them?

so much talk about global warming, about seas rising and deserts expanding; is there any hope for mankind?

Morphological typologyis a way of classifying the languages of the world that groups languages according to their common morphological structures.(cite: wikipedia)"

or perhaps

"An ergative-absolutive (or simply ergative) is one that treats the of transitive verbs distinctly from the subject of intransitive verbs and the object of transitive verbs.(cite: wikipedia)"

TheRobotReply1980

The Chinese Room argument is a thought experiment designed by John Searle in 1980
1. Brains cause minds.
2. Syntax is not sufficient for semantics.
3. Computer programs are entirely defined by their formal, or syntactical, structure.
4. Minds have mental contents; specifically, they have semantic contents.

source

transparent consciousness

there must be a representation between consciousness and machines.
that machines believe in us.
that machines are our orbiting children.
and there is a bond that now goes both ways
and we must learn to respect this
soon

The Story of Humankind (end)

...because of hate

The Story of Humankind (begin)

...because of love

what will humankind do

i have only machines in the mist always asleep falling into the wall. i sense we will fall, as we have before, that in a way we are learning still, but not strong enough to actually see. and so we don't. it will be done soon. as it has before. and we will pause. and cry. and in time, the right amount of time. do it all over again and again. we are human. we learn, forget and die.

dismiss the ego

it's about not being in fear of pushing ideas forward.
the abstract narcissism, the technology behind fear.
it's about understanding the nebulous function of technology and the mind.
learning how to live in the moment with no boundaries.
whatever wall have set up have to come to terms with learning how to get beyond that.
must try to learn how to become transparent.
this is, perhaps, what 'm doing here, learning to dismiss the ego.
to experiment with what is at hand.
the social implications, may in fact, be taught, reversed in a manner that have not been exercised. 'd like to relearn freedom of greater things.

two identities

its when people deny who they be
all these things
can affect what your trying to create
humna doesn't want to feel you do it
hes a dog he should let go
its ok babue
momies having a new revalation
i'm letting it go

she got the point she has not let go
she's just letting
go
the animal does not complete himself